Cottonyevil
I am an artist from Warsaw, creating stunning worlds using photography and collage. With my kitsch art I bring to life my dark, mythical and gothic imagination. My creative processes include paper, glue, tape, acid, make-up and character design. I strive to create worlds that can hypnotize my audience and provide the viewer with an escape from their own reality.
Anniversary
A project about 10 years of friendship, love, hate and happy memories. This deeply personal project is a therapeutic exploration of the complex emotions associated with a man who was simultaneously my best friend, my love, a stranger and a source of pain. Based on my journals, which supported me during the days when we did not communicate, I decided to look at everything that was happening from an observer's perspective.
Over the years, I tried to find meaning in my experiences by creating “crystal castles” - symbols made of forgiveness, unspoken words, pain, reflection and hope. These castles represent my dreams and emotions, which, like crystals, are both beautiful and fragile, but over time have built resilience and inner strength in me.
I started keeping a journal to keep the pain in mind, to remind myself not to repeat the same mistakes and not to let them back into my life. In this project, memories are turned into photographs - each one symbolizing completion, a farewell to the past.
The emotions I encountered were extremely painful - like gum tangled in my hair, like a needle sticking into my skin, like choking on water, like falling off a swing, shattering my knees. Rereading our conversations, I could feel the physical pain in the palms of my hands, a reminder of the deep impact that relationship had on me. Ten years have passed, and I have a hard time remembering whom I am without him, as if my identity is inextricably linked to this man who, in fact, never existed.
Looking back, I often wonder how I would have acted on the day we met, knowing what I know now. The anniversary is not just a countdown, but a decisive farewell to the world and the man I created, based more on dreams than reality.
For this anniversary, I give him - and myself - a life without each other, a parting gift wrapped in the pages of this project.
I would like to give the project itself in the form of my journal, using entries from my personal diaries and notes. In my work I favor creating objects with my own hands out of paper and glue. I took the phrase "crystal castles" as my main idea, where I compare my human dreams and emotions to them. This project describes and shows an important part of my life, emotional attachment and working on myself.
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